Letting go

Reality; tug-of-war
Losing grip
Rope slipping between finger tips 
Soon, won't be able to hold on
Tearing muscles
Blistering hands
Feet are slipping off the sand

Weak and weary
The fight is almost gone
"It's" just way too strong
No longer can I hold on
Letting go
I scream relentlessly...
Believing I'm in defeat
Falling to my knees;
In frustration and agony

I gave up!
"It" has won
...
...
WOW
What have I just done!

In grave disappointment and such disbelief
Feeling a force lift my head
Eyes widen
I finally see
"It" was in defeat
Me; victory

No longer in captivity
No longer in control
I...just had to let go...

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It's so hard to hand over the control completely to God, even though I know that is what must be done. Especially to no longer be captive to life's curve balls. Right now this is what I'm learning to do...seems like this is always what I'm learning. It's like I get it; then just forget it... I don't want to do that anymore. I know when always "letting go" and handing the control to God things go so much smoother but why must it be so hard to just Let go??? (Rhetorical question)

I know He is the ultimate provider. We would not be where we are today, not even close, if it weren't for Him. Lord just help me somehow someway to hand COMPLETE control to you and to "let go" of these things that my husband nor myself have "control" over.