I am constantly learning from my daughter. Over the past few weeks she has been mimicking me in so many ways. This encourages me but frightens me greatly. While we were listening to Spirit 105.9 the other day, Amelia lifts her hands in the air, eyes squinted, spinning, and just singing aloud. She was praising! That made my heart melt. I was simply amazed at what she was doing, and she continues to do it. This encourages me to continue reading to her, continue playing praise and worship music, and continue praying with her as a family. I get so frightened because it seems as if she is imitiating my every move. I have to be on my toes all the time. I have said/done/and watched things in front of her that should not have been. We know we all have so I'm not afraid to say this. But I do know that I want to raise my daughter in the best way possible. I don't want to tell her not to do something as she gets older and she sees me doing the very thing I asked her not to. This world is full of hypocrisy, especially in the church, and I especially don't want to fall in that category. I am continuously asking God to strenghten me, give me the right heart in every situation and circumstance and to speak through me. I want my daughter to come from a strong Christian background. I want her to know who she is in Christ. I know as I continue to do these things, with God guiding us, she will be in great hands. I guess it is a good thing that it does frighten me because it pushes me to do right, not just in front of her but all the time.
It's funny how we are constantly learning from her as we are the ones teaching her. The pureness and love that a child has can teach us so many things. It pushes me to be the best mother I can be for her, although I do know the world will try to distort her view, this is the very reason why we teach her this early on. Love can break so many obstacles and bring so much freedom and as she gets older I want her to know and remember truely what love is. We, her parents, can only teach her this. This is why we must stay grounded in who we are!
