I feel Like life has changed drastically over the past few days, yet it hasn't. I just know that God is doing a work in my life. I felt empty and alone for a while, doing everything I knew to feel Him, but that was the problem I was just wrapped around "doing." I fell back into my old habit, I kept just doing and doing and worrying about things which I have no control over. After getting off the phone with a friend a few days back, late that night I was just left thinking. Finally I felt as if God was just speaking to me. I needed to start resting in the finished work of Christ. It's so easy to get side tracted and take things in our own hands and that's when things start going crazy. I needed to sit back, rest, trust God that He is doing what's best for us, and no matter what we will be taken care of. The joy that I have felt over the past few days I haven't felt in such a long time. I finally feel His loving arms wrapped tightly around me.
It's so easy to fall back into the law mind-set when we take our eyes off the finished work of Christ. It's so easy to start focusing on just the natural when our eyes are taken off of Christ. With God all things are possible --- when keeping my eyes on Christ I see the supernatural.
I just couldn't get words out of my head that was spoke to me a little over a month ago. Focusing on that, it seemed things started to go further downhill. Now I'm using these words as a motivation in trusting God that He knows what's best for our family. I was looking for so much acknowledgement/approval because of the things that have been said and eyes that have looked down upon us. It hurt me greatly and I started feeling so lonely and completely misunderstood. Fact is, no one knows our situation like we do, no one knows what's best for our family other than us and God. No matter how many negative words or looks that we recieve towards our decisions we know we're doing something right, simply because our trust is in God. Where we were three years ago compared to today is completely a miracle. God has enrichly blessed us. Something God revealed to me, (something I knew, but had to be reminded of) I'm not the standard girl. I'm a bit old school, another reason why I'm looked at differently. The scriptures that I have read since that night God has revealed to me that no matter what words are being said I am doing something right. I am so far from perfect you can ask anyone who really knew me in Louisiana or my husband, no one knows my past like they do. I still have issues that I struggle with but when God showed me the things that He has in the past few days what a relief I felt. I don't need anyone's approval. God already loves me the way that I am and having my husband and daughter makes it even better. Acceptance is always something I struggled with but it's not what's important. All that matters is that I'm accepted by the One on high, what more can I ask for. No matter what His love is unconditional and He is with us every step of the way. Our trust is completely in God and He reamains faithful. No matter what any one says or does we feel in our heart what we are doing is what's best for us and we ask God to guide us in all things.
We need no one's approval other than His! We simply need to let the world stop defining who we are, we are Children of God. God always remains faithful and provides for His children.
